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I'd like to recommend Crappy Childhood Fairy UA-cam channel. She is wonderful nd helps people work through deep-seated past traumas

Sixteen moves over my life, and I got seeing them all as positive changes. Refocuses a person. On dating past the age of 50....you are in a 'pond' with limited fish, so baiting the hook and spending time fishing....requires a lot more patience than when one was 25.

So many of us have struggled with the illusion and what we wish a situation would be like and the reality of what is. We ALL deserve to have healthy happy relationships. But it does all start with self love. We continue to repeat some things until we learn the lesson. Listen to your intuition and cut the cord so you can be available for something better. Much love to you in your ongoing journey.

I'm beginning to realize this, all too late!

Have a great day!

That light blue purple dress you have is gorgeous and the seafoam or Seaglass.

I think those scenarios can continue to show up until you can recognize it from a mile away. You did recognize it and backed out you put on the brakes. Relearning is a process I mean I have 50 years relearning. Still have some cptsd come up the last of all that was in 2016. No more fight or flight but your mind still sees things and wants to jump to fear. I do the nail thing peeling the skin away even. It's all ok we have to be patient with ourselves to heal.

Gorgeous Victoria!!❤

Enough red-flags....I'd have clear my path and move on. But I wouldn't move back to Eugene...seems like you live in a pretty good town now.

Thank you for sharing this. As a victim of similar behavior myself, I appreciate you sharing your journey. I know that you will be helping someone out there by speaking openly. Someone will hear you and it may just save a life. Aggressive/assertive behavior leads to more. Thank you SO much for sharing this! I am so thankful and grateful that you did. ❤

You deserve so much better! It may be difficult but you are a strong woman and you can do what you need to do! You deserve love and dates and the wedding dress, if that is what your heart wants!

You absolutely deserve better but you are right it only will continue as long as you allow it.

Breaking the cycle is hard because I would tell myself well but this one never hits me so I can put up with everything else because that makes it all ok .

Logical thought process....but instincts always kick in.

👍you are a true artist and that’s why I follow you 😊

I absolutely love that hoody! Nice work! Very very cool❤

I am so glad your cat is doing better. Change is so difficult for our kitty friends. This was a great video. I love those tanks. I miss the workshop but I am still following you and watching your videos.

Love the wall art batik 👍

so happy for you - wishing you many years of contentment and peaceful happiness in your new home xx

What a beautiful view from your Secret Garden front yard...I love it! You could sit out there and draw new batik ideas!

You bring up a interesting topic....small-town America where people are bored and begging for strangers to appear and relate some new tale/life-story. I remember it from 1970s...rural south, where new people arrived. Yeah, there is the gossip angle and people want the 'juicy-stuff'. I'd share a shot-glass of life and leave the rest to their imagination. The observation I will offer....as weird or off-the-path that you have ventured into.....in a year, you might find three or four 'neighbors' with similar stories. Everyone has something they hold as 'guarded'.

Three observations: (1) Ok, I get the 'signal' that you want some romance script, but you seem to desire something 'epic' and you seem to be barely at first-base on this situation. Do things have to speed up to turbo so quick? (2) Mid-50s? Really....yeah I was identifying you at 46/47. Guess I got that wrong. (3) On the name business...I can understand if you had some French-sounding 4-sylabelle name....I'd probably on the first date give you a nickname and hope you didn't dump me at the restaurant later. (pardon my sarcasm) I'm not pulling for or against the guy, but he'd have to up his strategy of date-poker if he wanted match wits with you. (my humble thought)

Good story-telling talents. Plus I like the beach.

Interesting self-perception. Four points: 1. My brother used to say (even into his 40s) that he had 44 different 'filters' and getting to the perfect woman was near impossible. I wrote a blog once....identifying his 44 filters which was meant to fake and humorous, to which later he admitted.....half of them were correct. People want the perfect partner and work hard to increase the number of filter...rather than decrease them. 2. Laying out stuff on social media, and thinking someone you 'desire' doesn't read them? Maybe in the 1990s, that worked....today? I give it 50-50 odds that he looks at social media. 3. On my personal anxiety 'index' (1-10)....I'd be giving you a '9'. I'd be at the gym, a bowling alley, or some literature group to de-stress myself. 4. Finally, on God assigning you 'single-status'....BS. I do believe in luck (good and bad). Video-blogging is an art of story-telling and you are doing a pretty good job.

That's not an injured crow, it's a fledgling!!! It's parents are there to protect it until it can fly off on its own. The only thing you're doing is going to injure and/or kill not only the fledgling, but adult crows and as a former wildlife sanctuary care person I can tell you that crows have very strong and protective bonds with their family and that includes they have large, extended families. They also have lifespans to 60 years, with the exception if they're murdered.

Guys interpret things a-mile-a-minute....getting perceptions wrong...then fearing ill-words or getting dumped. You may see him as a 1965 Ford Mustang....but he may perceive himself as 1971 Ford Pinto.

What is life without a few 'curves'?

Growing pains in relationships can be so hard! I’m glad you forgave him. My husband used to ghost me and be late for all our dates. I finally told him that I deserved better and that he needed to shape up or ship out! He shaped right up and we’ve been happily married 18 years!❤❤❤🎉

My money is on the crows......

Mid 50s?!? Liessss

u.m...... lady.... they don't like that ur doin that.. they will hunt u now, and ki(( you. go for ur eyes!! if I was u I would go inside and leave them alone.. not good karma miss.

He’s feeling like shit about himself and needs an ego boost. That’s all you are to him. If he truly cared you would know and be number one. Don’t let him have any attention back it’s the best way to teach him.

Compassion and understanding is great but worthless without boundaries. Set them early so they know they can’t treat you that way.

Well if we were friends and I lived near you I’d come over and make some really crappy junk food and watch trash TV 😂… but also 🫂

hello, welcome to r/raisedbynarcissist. <3

Ghost him back. Out of your heart and mind.

Dont let a man be the excuse to not allow yourself to be happy. I'm glad your on the right track.

Don't engage, it's not worth your sanity or your peace when somebody treats you in that way and they come back without a proper explanation or apology. They are most often trying to tie you to a cycle of devaluation and then the tiniest of acknowledgment feels like a great gesture. It's not fair to you and it's better to know where your boundaries lay and stick to them. Look out for yourself. When someone confuses you they either don't truly care and/or aren't capable of doing so at that time (may never be). Better to focus on yourself (your art) and be more aware when you meet someone new if they start doing the same behaviors cut them off early and be patient until you meet a genuine human.

You have had so many changes, that it is just so much. Please give yourself grace while you figure out your feelings. I don't believe God wants you to be single, I believe God wants someone who is the perfect fit for you and that makes you feel so loved that you don't even question it. You are exactly where you are supposed to be, and you are one of the strongest people that I have ever known. Don't settle for meh when you can have so much more. Sending you positivity :)

Love the sound of wind chimes❤

Blocking toxic people has made my life peaceful.

Maybe the Eugene house could be set up with a property manager and could bring you a somewhat passive income.

You articulated your feelings so well it is very impressive. The shorts are all great lengths, they fit the beach casual feel too with softness in the raw cut edge.. The sharing that you have done really has many aspects of how you have gone through situations which lead you to feel certain ways when new things come up in your life. You are able to tell us the layers which I personally can relate to so clearly. I know I have confidence in myself like you but also question my decisions sometimes too. It's pretty healthy but doesn't always feel like it is at the time. I have been single many years and love it but also wish I could share my life with a man but it is so scary and never right enough. I back off which is easier and safer. Men just really just think so differently than women. I love the freedom of being my own person but with friends to help get you through.

Well, I wish you all the best in what life gives you. You're talented, beautiful, and wise. 👍

Please remember we are all on our path in life. It may not mean the ones are not always at our level in life. But everyone is enters our life for a reason. Can he respect you for you and can you respect him for who he is. We can not go into a relationship expecting we can change a person to that we want them to be. 2 divorces later I learned this. But learned this to late and have some deep regrets.

I watched some of you live and I was commenting then. I didn't get to watch all the way through. I'm glad you posted this here. I swear I could watch you paint all day. It's so relaxing to watch you. This design is absolutely great! I look forward to seeing you finish. ❤

That sample dress is stunning! It looks so flowy!!!

How about a Lunar moth with a moon...that would be bad ass and the moth is not that different than a butterfly?

The style dress would look like nice with a fairy theme .mushrooms and fauna. Butterflies ..just an idea

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